This is NOT a family you want to be in. To start off let me validate myself. I started out taking Xanax, xans, bars, hulks, school buses, whatever you want to call it, just to test them out to make sure they were okay(which I learned they are NEVER okay) before giving them to other people. I never really liked them before but I grew to love them, and then eventually to despise them with all the anger and sadness inside of me. I started out from taking maybe half of a hulk a day, to 10 hulks a day. My birthday week, I took 54 bars in 5 days. I was lost in a Future and Travis Scott wave of Xanax, black outs, and depression. How I am alive right now, I do not know. For those who don’t know what a hulk is, it’s the green Xanax press that’s about 3-4 milligrams of Xanax.
School bus is the same thing just yellow. The thing is, these pills these days are not just alprazolam (Xanax’s medical name.) The vast majority, if not all, of the Xanax presses made these days are cut with fentanyl (a synthetic opiate that is used to cut heroin.) I know this because I kept failing my drug tests at my psychiatrist for both alprazolam, and opiates. My psychiatrist also met with NYC’s Psychiatry Board of Whatever, and was informed of the epidemic regarding Xanax presses coming in from Mexico that are cut with fentanyl. Now let me explain why this is dangerous. When alprazolam (Xanax) and ANY opiate are mixed, it is top three most dangerous combinations, in competition with heroin & cocaine, and Xanax and alcohol. Yes, when Xanax and alcohol are mixed you are increasing your chances of DYING, greatly. Xanax is an anti-anxiety drug, which is a downer, that hits the same cell receptors as alcohol, another downer. When two strong downers are combined, such as opiates (fentanyl) and Xanax, or alcohol and Xanax, they can be EXTREMELY FATAL.
When you drink on Xanax, you need maybe one – three drinks and boom, black out for hours. Now, fentanyl you may think, can’t be as bad as heroin since it is a prescription drug, but you are WRONG. Fentanyl has a lower threshold for overdose, meaning you need less fentanyl than heroin to overdose. Xanax bars cost anywhere from $2 to $7 each, and fuck you up for about 6-8 hours. Anything that cheap and that potent is downright evil. Xanax is extremely addicting, as well as opiates. If you are addicted to Xanax, and run out, the withdrawal fucking blows, and it can be FATAL, because you are at risk for a SEIZURE from the withdrawal of alprazolam.
Besides the risk of the seizure, your brain gets seriously fucked up. I was crying at the slightest thing, depressed when I didn’t have any bars, and my vocabulary was diminished to the extent of a fourth grader’s, if that. I was struggling to put sentences together for a month after detoxing. These pills make you depressed and retarded. I wrote this article because if I can help one person with this information, that is a big success.
If anyone out there is addicted to Xanax and needs help, please check yourself into a detox, or at least see a doctor, because you may think you’re okay if you just stop taking them, but you’re honestly better off tapering yourself off so you’re at less risk of a seizure. There are Narcotics Anonymous programs WORLDWIDE, that are FREE to attend meetings. I’ve been in and out of the program and I’ve seen, first hand, that there are a tremendous amount of people there that are willing to help those in need. If you have no family or loved ones to help you with this struggle, I would suggest going to an NA meeting, for you will find family there. For real, they treat people with love.
If you have any questions about how I got off of the devil sticks, or what you should do if you are struggling with addiction, or if you have a loved one who is suffering from addiction, feel free to DM me at @akapistolrose. Signing off.
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